7th lie, lies in heaven

My life is a shabble of lies

under the power of lies, of a mother

1.My mum used to say that she hates people who tells lies.

But the biggest liar of them all, is herself

She often takes the tip of chicken wing for herself

Telling us that it was the tastiest part of a bird

One day, I took it for myself

All I crunch on is bones

However, I chose to believe her

as I chew on my drumstick

2. As I grew older,

life did not get easier,

She took up a job as a a babysitter,

She always took in little boys,

She told me that she loves to have a son,

as she only bore 4 daughters

I was jealous thinking that

My mum is unfair.

The money she earned,

feed us and school us,

put a roof above our heads.

It was years later that I discover that she works at home

to be able to care for us

not to abandon us at home

as she worked outside

Why did she lie?

3.My favourite and frequent meals are banana fritters and nasi lemak,

When I get home from school,

I would look into the food store

and find a mountain of fried bananas,

My mum cooked the world's delicious sambal ikan bilis,

and the most aromatic coconut rice.

It was her best recipe.

Little did i know that it was the cheapest recipe

that she could come up with

4.She walked everywhere,

because we do not have transportation,

She said that she needed the exercise

When she bought a second-hand car,

she was in such a frenzy,

that she sold the car for a RM5OO lost

after only a few drives

In my heart,

i was thinking that

"my mum is timid."

For years she told me

that she woke up after nightmares

of car crashes

How could i not see the link between these 2 events?

5.After graduation, i worked miles away,

Only coming back for holidays,

She told me it is ok to be independent

But why did she get hurt when i forgot to call back home?

6.My mum took weird diet of fresh fruits and vegetables

that tastes weird and smells weird

She tells me that it is healthy

i never got to why she would eat that

until she tells me that her blood pressure

is not getting any lower

7. As she gets older,

she was afflicted with old age complication,

her heart, her eyes

She told me that she rather die than to be sick

It is too much for her to suffer all her life

I thought, "Pessimistic."

Truth is she does not want to burden her children

that placed multitude of burdens upon her

I was a leukematic

My first sis was rebellious (never see eye to eye)

The second sister is diagnosed to be deaf, but then confirmed to be autistic

My youngest sister has insecurity problems since infancy and hyperventilation complications

If she could, she would have died years ago

But she kept on for her 4 children

"Don' t cry, my dear. Im not in pain."

After saying her 7th lie,

She closed her eyes forever!

No, she didn't
i would not let that happen

without telling her that

"How could you let me believe your lies for years,

how could you hide the truth from me,

the truth that you love me

will never forsake me

without any condition attached."

I am sorry, mum,

for not being considerate.

i will learn to see the truth behind the lies.