Concidence

Our concept for 9th anniversary
at first glimpse seemed fragmented

i prayed and prayed that one day, our concepts may merge and unite as one
every detail does not stand by itself but complemented the big picture of it

i saw a ray of hope this time

let me guide you through:

(1) decoration and backdrop

the banner showcases a field of wind-shuffling wheat in the midst of a landscape, airy, breezy, a dallop of sunshine, per-dawn state
there is a tree in the middle of it, it is wilting (actually withered), with all the leaves blown away or perhaps fallen off, a sad look.
then another frame of bushy, luscious leaves was positioned on it, dictating refreshing, renewed and bountiful, fruitful, evergreen (you name it)

can u catch the concept?

even the staircase was beautified with the labels "The One." Sweet right!

(2) Special presentation

it is a chronicle of the life stages of fireflies
circling around some bed-time stories
emphasizing that life is short

fireflies struggle to live just for a moment
but it is worth living even for a while

we are like the fireflies
fluttering and meddling our own business
before we now it, life ends....

inspiring!

however, something tells me that God is working through all of us, uniting our thoughts and works

Concept 1: Deco

the big book of inspiration (exhibition) was a cover with leaves with green background
the booklet (exhibition) has a flip-open slit of the front cover ( a leaf too)

Concept 2: Fireflies

our ceiling is ornamented with silvery and golden balls, twirling as a number 9 representing our 9 years of establishment

You call it concidence, i call it the working of Holy Spirit!

a beautiful notation to it: God is working through us to speak to His people despite our differences and time-frame ! Amen.

Beautiful ending.

finally the 9th anniversary came and ended
though many brothers and sisters could not make it with us this time round
it is considered fruitful with a beautiful ending

i was so glad that i can finally stop what i am doing
and i guess back to normal

then, i just collapsed on my bed and dozed off
several times a day
i think the drowsy spell is not over yet
i did not know the toll on me until i finally call it "a break."

there are a discoveries i notice:

(1) we need to strengthen our internal circle, we cannot afford losing any one in our team before we can disciple the new ones.
(2) God really loves my church so much that He will never gives up even when people do
(3) we are becoming busier than ever, which is an unhealthy symptom, you may say that we can be a blessing in our workplace, but when we are not careful, we will drift away, it always comes this way
(4) catch the vision will cure and heal us, let us look into the big picture and all these will diminish, give us the courage to face the truth, let us take charge by the Grace You have given us, let us not deceive our ownself
(5) Satan is deploying a vicious plot, He no longer tramples obviously, we have to discern and humble to see it.
(6) We need to get back on the "Mission Track." We are born, trained, equipped and prepared for this mission.


And here i wish Hope Ktn, long-enduring (9 9 ), evergreen and keep shining for Jesus!

Walk the way

the world wide web is supposed to be a wide world
everything should be connected like a web
however, it is not easy to look for information concerning mission work
it is whether it is restricted or missionaries are too busy to update themselves online
perhaps their faithfulness has come to an end in earth
their work is recorded in a big book in heaven
titled: The faithful Ones

so when i had the manual in my hands
my heart cries, so touched
as if a longing is finally satisfied
a quench thrist
a search is done

to know more about mission work
you have to be there and done that
no words are able to express the experience
the heartfelt of a missionary

i am very grateful to the administration
for providing such valuable teachings
and giving such a support, back up and confidence
to the future missionaries/ church planters to come

missionaries of the past has to go through the dark alley alone
with all these, i can say, trust is built, we are not alone in this
let us step out in faith............
go on strong and far for Jesus
for Jesus had walked the way before us...

vision for mission

for weeks i had felt my pulse quickening and heartbeat paced a little faster
mission camp is coming to town soon
and finally it came

i tell myself, " i must not complain but really savor every moment of it."

first of all, everything was dutifully prepared and laid out
the whole camp was physically exhausting at first but it got better over the time
we stretched ourselves to our maximum without breaking (thank god)

if this is consider tough, we would not be able really to go for mission
in the real world
expand this to 1000 times harder (and that's call mission la)

if i had to give this camp a theme, i would say:

The First Step: Mission exploration for beginners

why?
because it is a fundamental and preliminary work for mission goers
preparations that we needed to do before we step ground on mission fields
background check and cultural exposure of the natives and nations

the practical work that we need to do is a necessity
online, interviews, invitation, team building, community association,
map reading, running places, cook within a limited budget
everything must be done in a specific time and money range
to equip us for mission work

it is not about fun and pleasure
because we cannot afford such leisure in a new place
whether in time, money or energy span

entering into the camp, i was expecting expounding impacts
but it was just mere
then i realize, back to basics are important
we need to build our foundation and be grounded
in order to run far, finish the race and win the prize

what is my prize?
just a meet with Jesus face to face and Him saying,
" Dear, you faithful servant, you have finished the race."

light salt

The world of world wide web is so wide
and i just cant stop recalling the people i have known all my life
the close and the forgotten

the personalites and characters they had
the nicest ones are those who do not know God

it makes me sad to notice their kindness, gentleness and humility
whereas a person like me, pray, go to church and attends the wholesome of you-know-what do not have much difference or no much better

we need to raise up, change and abandon our self and take up the cross
let us be renewed and refreshed

that we can be the light and salt in this world
not a speck of dust or a spit of lukewarm water

people look up to us as the Children of God
not look down on us as fanatics and non-existence

pretender

some people are recognised for their accomplishments, success and credentials
some are known and forever remembered for their attitude in life, characters and impacts on others
some are applauded for their struggle in life and overcoming it, inspiring people to have faith despite circumstances

How do you want to be recognised as?
What do i want to be known for?

we do not seek for personal interest nor seek to please the world
but let us not fool ourselves into thinking that hiding our light under the bed will do any good or honor our Lord

Stop pretending what we, are not and should be!
There is no room for pretenders....
There is no room to be licking our wound and boast on how weak and vulnerable we are...

i feel so sick and tired looking out from the window...
outside, the air is fresher, brighter and happier
why is the house so gloomy and broken?
would our guests feel invited and belonged in this place?

we need to equip and train ourselves...
keep pushing, praying and push some more...
God is laying challenges and pits of fire to get us moving and going
He is not longer here
He has moved forward, we have to go forward to meet Him

Praying, is it an act of faith or a dependency for miracles and easy way out?
God wants to tell us that "it is not easy, not only it is not easy, it is extremely hard and we may have to lay our lives, would you do it?"

Listen to our own cries of prayer?
is it out of faith or fear?
Look at our own actions and change.
if there is none, we do not act out of faith.

We are lying not praying.

2889

browsing through the internet for exhibition materials
has been fruitful
and an exposure for myself

a breakthough and a gain of understanding
in the aspect of vision, spiritual and mentally

it all started with the cutting of the latest vision statement
it had not been easy as it was quite long
in that process, many questions came into my mind
this vision is not easy to be accomplished, if you could not complete this sentence
how are you going to complete this mission?
it has open up my mind of truly embracing this vision and great commision
it is not going to be easy
it is not easy for Paul, Moses, Abraham, prophets, missionaries and even Jesus
it is not going to be easy for me....

but taking this road
as Jesus had walked before me
is a destiny
My destiny.....

The night i finally caught the vision of God was 28 August 2009
A day i will always remember...

silence

so much to say
yet do not know how to start

first i would like to state that what i do most does not mean that it is my utmost priority
but it is necessary for my growth and unity of us
if there is personal interest in what i do, i rather be blogging and msn ing
my favourite past time and venting mechanism would be writing and people
through writing, i could encourage myself and let my mind flow
through msn, i could encourage people where at the same time, do many things
multi- tasking as we are online and such behavior will not seem inappropriate since no eyes could judge

i just could not bear to do only one thing at a time
had to be two at least

hmmm....
whatever i do, i rather do in silence and solitude
as the bible says, do not let your right hand knows what your left hand does
so true, this is to make sure one's interest and intention always lays in God
who sees when no one sees
Amen

By the way, when you do things in open, people may see you overt, hmmm....
have to hide and slow down (just to please others)
some say i am so rush, workaholic and rash,
i guess i am just an epitome of effectiveness
had to do much but at the same time, must seem effortless and breath-easy
it takes a good acting impression

people that say more than what they do ,do not deem respect for what their mouth utter

exhibition

ehm...so much to do...
i spend my sleeping time thinking
and waking time doing

like always
i hurt myself here and cut, unnoticeably
toes and fingers with minor cuts and little bruises
i guess it was during moving the towers of chair
and flipping through papers

no line at home
so has to surf and optimize my time now,
during meal time
thank God, there is wifi every where
who needs to sit and home and surf....ler.

my destiny

my destiny....

Option A- intellectual....like obtaining post graduates and thus, be a lecturer
Option B- working professionals, i do not like to work under rigid regimes like engineer
Option C- business like, nothing is more challenging that to oversee many aspects of business and solving minor to major issues
Option D- charity and volunteer works.... my latest venture and fave

Option A is a life-long intervention. Like every kid, i thought of myself getting the most prestigious and time-consuming education. It has been my dream. Being a lecturer and educator seems nobel and not perplexing.
Option B, working is tedious and a gradual, stable and predictable progress...from an engineer to a partner and then own a private firm. very comforting and assuring.
Option C is an unknown option until i joined a multi-level marketing business, it opened a whole new level and perspective of my sight and insight of life. After that i joined my now local church, that has a vision that sounds like this:
Our vision is to fulfill the Great Commision by raising Christ-centered disciples to build vibrant and biblical churches in Kuantan, East Coast, Malaysia and all over the earth.

How does it sound? it is very enterprenuering especially in the last term (all over the earth) it captures my attention and redefine my life venture.

it fulfills my:
Option A: Disciple (means to teach)
Option B: Build churches (i am a civil engineer graduate)
Option C: all over the world (very business like with an entreprenial spirit)

How does my option D comes by? i find myself pulled into this direction mentally and spiritually. I always think, consider, plan and excited by projects of reaching out to people and bridging people into the church and God. But, all i am lack of is the first baby step, wobbly little few steps, the fall it will bring and the fight to get back up again. You must know, charitable causes are non-profitable and funds need to be raised. Social awareness has to be cultivated.

From my engineering education, a concept is always vital and crucial in my every endeavour:

Sustainable Development: a project that will keep going, recreate revenues, even after the original establishers are not around to supervise. the foundation is very important, each methodology must consider how it will propel and propagate the whole project. it is life-creating.

9th anniversary: The One

this time round, we will be having our 9th anniversary
the theme would be "the one"
in mandarin "wei yi."

like always, i am excited and over the moon (over dramatic)
there are suggestions on how to present it
the concept is how one person could make a difference to the world
and change it

when one individual arises with a new concept and invention, he changes the way others live
the power of one
the examples will be like albert einstein, michael jackson, missionaries, air asia....
people who are not afraid to step out, do things differently, and pave a new path, not restricted by what is possible in the eyes of common men

in short, it is common men doing uncommon things

the theme will be gradually revealed....
on the backdrop of the stage

(1) Are you the one?
(2) Are you ready to become the one?
(3) You are the one
(4) I am the one
(5) Finally, the one..... (wow, splendid)

before that, our wallscape near the staircase has to be refurbished
the surface is already dismayed by the tearing off of previous vision statement

many things to do, AHHH.....

vision

my church is a visionary church, building visionaries of the future
however, i did not feel that it is realizing any sooner anymore

every church member has to quote the vision statement
but our vision statement has been amended months ago

i can only wonder who really memorize the new vision statement
it is such a pity
my church is once a church so founded on the Great Commision
we are once so sure what to do to expand His Kingdom
now, my church lost its original flavor

our vision is entwined with the church's, used to be

now....so slurred and blurred
what are we doing in actual?