addiction

i have to admit i am addicted

obsessed

could not live without

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my blog

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it becomes my driving force

my motivation

my devotion period

i have to admit i am not worshipping the Lord

but i am worshipping myself (self-indulgence)

When my line was struck by lightning

i was cut away from the internet

and my life crumbles

i have no channel to express myself

i have nothing

i could have written and journalled

by writing down

but i hates my writing

jumbling

i could have typed on my computer

but i could not put my fingers on it

i know why....

because i am addicted to others' responses

i need to know that i am heard, accepted and recognised

broadcasted on a media

i am living for myself, in myself and with myself

it is all about ME, ME and ME

This long lonely week without blogging

is a wake up call for me

I need my Lord

i need to come before my Lord sincerely and faithfully

i need acceptance from God not from people

I am living for God not for any one else

i confess my sins and vanity

now, i shall blog with a refound new attitude...