cannot breath....

i am emotionally retarded

engulfed by passionate flames

sighted but blinded by desires

i am so wild and untamed

it is so scary and out of control

but as a Child of God

i am no longer controlled by desires

but filled by the Holy Spirit

i do not act on my own will

but in the will of the Spirit

God...help me...give me the patience and spiritual eyes to see

i cannot breathe.....

Died and lived

If we have died with Him

we shall also live with Him

If we continue to endure

we shall also rule with Him

If we deny Him

he also will deny us

If we are not faithful

he remains faithful

because he cannot be false to Himself

2 Timothy 2: 11-13

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Above is the relationship between

me, myself and my Lord, Jesus Christ

He has given me new life, not one

but many new lives

chances to start anew

afresh

and now the living me

is living with Him, in Him

and through Him

as each day passes, i know that He has

a will for me.....

it seems that i am burning time meaninglessly

and endlessly

i am so aimless

at this moment, all i need to endure

is not challenges, problems nor mental tolerance

but .....

silentless, plainful but not painful period of my life

Am i losing my sense of direction

or that i am too adaptable

that i lost my senses?

i can't even feel anger, remorse nor jeolousy.

i do not have emotions, it seems

i smile a lot, but it is empty

God, i want to rule with you...lead me to endure these plains of emptiness........

God....i know that in many times, i was and am not faithful

to you...

i trust myself even more than trusting You

i worry so much and disbelief of Your providence and

promise to take care of me forever

And now, i can feel my faith deteriorating

i am looking around,

into these flesh and desires

seeing that it is not fulfilled

nor prospered

i know that the most precious possesion is when i close my eyes, i still know that it remains and never lost....it is Your Love and Grace to me...

Breathing at this moment is Your Promise to me that You have not left me, will never do and always stay by me...It is how You say that You are faithful to me!

Thank you to my faithful Lord! Let me feel Your mighty hands closing on to me, to feel your warmth and closenesss. Amen.

Philosopher's Journey

Philosopher's Journey

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Philosophy is the

1. Love and pursuit of wisdom

2. Investigation of the nature, causes, or reality,

3. A system of thought

4. The critical analysis of beliefs.

5. A set of ideas or beliefs ; an underlying theory

8. A system of values by which one lives: has an unusual philosophy of life.

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My quest to answer these probing questions:

(1) To find out why people respond the way they respond to gospel

(doubt, concern, disbelief, ....there are certain degrees and variations depending on the individual and timing)

(2) Why are "not everyone who call to me will be saved" is uttered by Jesus? Are there different categories of believers? How to define them?

(a Christian that doubts salvation or someone that claims that he believes in all Gods...many more)

(3) How would we, as Christians be able to evangelism in a way relevant to people, connect to their belief system? Walking into their world instead of indulging on own mental world.

( we look things through our own eyes, if we could gain the knowledge of looking through different sight, it would be impactful and effective..)

(4) Does the bible cater for every type of underlying philosophy?

( Meaning that there are bible verses or biblical truth [key] that opens the mind of an atheist, agnostic.....many more)

(5) Everyone has its own priority and definition of life. Is it philosophical or revelation, living the way we do?

( we are holding our stand or living the will of God?)

(6) Can a Christian be a philosopher?

( a theologian= people who pursues the knowledge of God ,does not necessary is a believer)

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What is your philosophy of life?

What is your purpose in life?

Philosophy = /= Purpose

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How do we tackle the philosophy of a certain person?

Try to ask any question and look into the perception and the way of thinking of the person.

You will find that there are certain abiding and strong view on certain issues.

They always end up looking at things at certain way.

People are stubborn and unchanging at times.

There is an underlying philosopher in every soul.

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22To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some.

23I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.

1 Corinthians 9: 22 - 23

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Surprise birthday cake

Both are inspired by splashing waves and sunbathing by the beach !





I love this...looks Valentine to me....wish could share it with.......(smiling to myself)

This is a sorbet cake.
Sorbet is actually frozen fruity ice cream. Yummy and vitamin luscious....







This looks dangerous (Leaning Tower of Pisa)
How to eat (ler)?
The white pieces are meringue...
i think the eating process might be quite messy.













I must be swift in this. Decorate them in time before
ice-cream melts in our hands.
However, i still do not get how to get those "fishy eyes." Use little candy?










Beautiful, right! I can feel the ice cream melting in my mouth as i dig into the crunchy cookies....
i can use all flavor of cookies: OREO, chocolate, strawberry and many more...









Turtle cake....wow...what could be cuter than this...however...i like the little one better !

Castle...fit for a princess to eat and live in...(haha) i am thinking to freeze it in 2 parts, then can put up last minute (during the celebrated moment)

..... Instead, the greatest among you should be like the youngest, and the one who rules like the one who serves.

27For who is greater, the one who is at the table or the one who serves? Is it not the one who is at the table? But I am among you as one who serves.

Luke 22:26 - 27

Fun craft presentation

These are the few methods we can apply in gift presentation to create an impactful impression.

i love these paper bag. A little decor can make so much different and modified to suit any occasions. Perfect!

Candies are sweet so are the containers should be !

The cookies transparent wrapper. A good idea ! i can modify it to fortune cookie (in my case: blessing cookie)

The flower pots are super cute, with the lollipop as the nectar and the stalk !

A frog jumping out of a box ...suspensing and full of SURPRISE!

This is just the normal candy type of wrapping, but the upper part is crafted to look like lilies or roses...simple yet creative touch!

Meringue on the top of a cookie...smooth idea...like it (will use as next birthday plot)

This could be stuck to the base of polystrene and offer to visitors as treat and delight !

Paperbags affordable, tangible and chameleon!

Don't throw away the pieces of old clothes, reuse them as goodie bags !Be environmental -friendly!

I love the wind mill, can be written little messages like:

All well goes around !

Do not waste the pie! Stuff it!

I am thinking if using the tea bag of Lipton as scented bag! Good idea...refreshing !

If only i could find present paper with little buildings, i could make these with ease! (must remember to look out!)

5For when we were controlled by the sinful nature,[a] the sinful passions aroused by the law were at work in our bodies, so that we bore fruit for death.

6But now, by dying to what once bound us, we have been released from the law so that we serve in the new way of the Spirit, and not in the old way of the written code.

Romans 7: 5-6

Goodbye, my friend

Friends are forever

To have you forever by my side

would be to be your dearest friend

and companion

"i am here when you need me"

is suffice to say

Anything more or less

is a torture

of losing you.....

Unable to love you

is to say

"i am unable to lose you."

Is it fate or heart-shattering destiny..

that we have to cross this boundary ?

Would it be goodbye, my friend?

Hello...my dear..... (i am so confused)

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8I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others.

2 Corinthians 8: 8

married to a mission

"An opportunity has been presented to me

of spending days with lost souls,

people yet to know about Jesus Christ.

Convinced that this is a calling from God

to spend my life as it is.

I am willing to go through all dangers and hardships

knowing that I give myself to the greatest work of all."

This is a entry of Ann Hasseltine's diary in response to the proposal of Adoniram Judson, an American missionary to Burma.

It was love at first sight.

After Adoniram Judson met Ann at her father's house in Bradford,
he proposed marriage to her by letter.
But Ann was unable to answer him immediately—
not only because she barely knew him,
but because she realized she would be marrying not


.............. only a man,


............. but a vocation.
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This is an article not simply that i stumbled upon

but a reminder and a divination hint to me.......

that marriage would not simply be the joining between a man and a woman

but an exposition of two personalities come together as one entity,

to build a ministry

to fulfil the Great Commision

where one can do just that much

two can do much more than that

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i believe there will be another height in my life

where i would no longer be alone

but has found my.....vocation

i could not sleep or wink for nights

meals do not please me

it was torturing

i have been praying and comforting myself

last night, i reached my finale

and feared that i may faint and falter

if i do not sleep any longer

then i prayed, "if it is your will,

i shall pray for my life partner....

i accept your provision and the chosen one.

Amen."

And i had a sound sleep that i was so deprived off.

Waking up this morning,

i was humbled by God's guidance and leading

that i finally believed that God

really does prepare a chosen one for us.

And we have to submit.

It is the way God tells us that, "He is the one for you."

I believed.....finally.

click here....to link to the full version of biography.

sweet mission (3)

As i always do

i asked Ah Kuan , "Do u like writing?

Are you interested to write your testimony?"

Actually i have prepared some testpad in case she wanted to write on the spot

somemore, i saved my and Kok Wei's blog posts on my computer

to show it to Kuan

Blog is my baby, i always show it to everyone. (grins)

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That night, Kuan confessed to me that she liked to serve

She may be lacking of idea, but she likes to help out

In my opinion: serving should be fun, enjoyable and stress-less

"trifle" making is a gift to us:

because God has always put into my heart

to recruit people as assistant and back-ups in the church

and what she said is a reminder and a motivation to me
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I was late to prepare Holy Communion

well, Chee Woon helped us to wash and dried the utensils

i was rushing like a madwoman

my usher leader / shepherd

helped me to wear on my usher nametag

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wow......the atmosphere and the spirit of the church

is so touching

full of unity (carrying each others burden)

initiative (go with the flow)

sweet-spirit (your task is mine too)

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the sweetness of trifle

the sweetness of God's grace

sweet to the taste bud

sweet to the heart

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It was a god's gift for us: Reminding us to keep our spirit "SWEET!"

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4For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope.

Romans 15: 4