i always fell, hurt, cut, chopped myself, bled, bruised and the list goes on....
i am glad to be still in one whole piece
it is getting embarassing to ever hurt myself in any way or others
it is normal to be injured
but it is not normal to be injured in each outdoor activity
Many years ago, i will tell God, "take away this thorn in my flesh"
2 Corinthians: 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
i wonder if ..
my physical configuration is unbalanced
i am mentally disturbed that i lost control
psychologically attention seeking
i really don't know
if i knew, i would not let this happen to me
i doubt myself
i want to be self-sufficient and independent
i have many scars on my body to show the:
mishaps
misfortunes
accidents
pains
i went through and endured all this while
no pain, no gain
let me see what are the positive behind these...
ehmm....
maybe can see who really cares for me
maybe can experience that i am weak, i need God's strength
suddenly feel that i need to be taken care of, tired of just looking after others
afraid..... oh, i am supposed to think of the good things..
when we are sick and in pain,
it is hard not to see the dark side.
Bothers and sisters, if your flesh is inflicted like mine...let's make this psalm our prayer
Psalm 38 (every verse hits hard on me...so real...as if talking about my life)
A psalm of David. A petition.
1 O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath.
2 For your arrows have pierced me, and your hand has come down upon me.
3 Because of your wrath there is no health in my body; my bones have no soundness because of my sin.
4 My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear.
5 My wounds fester and are loathsome because of my sinful folly.
6 I am bowed down and brought very low; all day long I go about mourning.
7 My back is filled with searing pain; there is no health in my body.
8 I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart.
9 All my longings lie open before you, O Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you.
10 My heart pounds, my strength fails me; even the light has gone from my eyes.
11 My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds; my neighbors stay far away.
12 Those who seek my life set their traps, those who would harm me talk of my ruin; all day long they plot deception.
13 I am like a deaf man, who cannot hear, like a mute, who cannot open his mouth;
14 I have become like a man who does not hear, whose mouth can offer no reply.
15 I wait for you, O LORD; you will answer, O Lord my God.
16 For I said, "Do not let them gloat or exalt themselves over me when my foot slips."
17 For I am about to fall, and my pain is ever with me.
18 I confess my iniquity; I am troubled by my sin.
19 Many are those who are my vigorous enemies; those who hate me without reason are numerous.
20 Those who repay my good with evil slander me when I pursue what is good.
21 O LORD, do not forsake me; be not far from me, O my God.
22 Come quickly to help me, O Lord my Savior.
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