melody in my heart

melody in my heart

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"struck the chord of my heart"

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is a phrase i used frequently

meaning

gaining understanding,

entering one's heart

finally

i had the pleasure and honour

to experience that

my blogger pal

will be performing soon

and he practiced over at msn

just for the first time listening:

i was melting

my knees wobbly

i became a jelly on my chair

a scene came to me:

there is a calm sea

and the water slowly rising

higher and higher in my heart

then it overflows

tears of the melody seas

were wallowing in my eyes

each second

tears are threatening to fall

down my cheek

it was euphoria

the sea was a sea of love

missing someone so miserably

many memories flooded my mind

and heart

all at once

how can i control mysef from melting?

how can i resist the passion of guitar strikes?

you are striking my heart....

that was this sorrow

that keep seeping thorough

each cell of my body

was grieving

and yet pleasureable

gambateh: my friend,

i represent every female that we really feel what it is like loving and missing someone at the same time.

You touch our hearts.

Your music enters into the deepest corner of our heart

When you stop playing, the melody keeps residing in us...

Sometimes By: Britney Spears

You tell me you're in love with me

Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me

It's not that I don't want to stay

But every time you come too close I move away

I wanna believe in everything that you say'

Cause it sounds so good

But if you really want me, move slow

There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Baby all I need is time

I don't wanna be so shy

Every time that I'm alone

I wonder why

Hope that you will wait for me

You'll see that you're the only one for me

I wanna believe in everything that you say'

Cause it sounds so good

But if you really want me, move slow

There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Baby all I need is time

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Baby all I need is time

Just hang around and you'll see

There's nowhere I'd rather be

If you love me, trust in me

The way that I trust in you

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Baby all I need is time

My quote:

It is easy to see someone's past hurts

there are symptoms and signals you receive and observe

run, hide, scared, closer and suddenly closed up, hot and cold, strange reactions,....

the list goes on...

who is not hurt in a way or two in this world?

relationships are promising and give way for the risk of getting....hurt

we could get nowhere by just avoiding....

......we need to face it face to face and say,

" I have overcomed it, nothing can bind or bound me for Jesus has set me free."

Angie,

God freed you.

Now you have to let go of the past and embrace beautiful future....

it is all right to let people see the true and truth of you

Why am i deceiving myself and others?

Lies upon lies to bury lies

"I am afraid no one will like the real Angie and hurt her,

afraid people will not accept everything of her,

i need to protect Angie (myself)."

happy ending By: Avril Lavigne

My Happy Ending ..

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something You said?

Don't leave me hangin'

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread

You were all the things

I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything,

everything that I wanted (I wanted)

We were meant to be,

supposed to be

But we lost it (We lost it)

All of our memories,

so close to me

Just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh

so much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh ohoh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they (So are they)

But they don't know me

Do they even know you? (Even know you)

All the things you hide from me

All the s*** that you do

(All the s*** that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything,

everything that I wanted (That I wanted)

We were meant to be,

supposed to be, but we lost it (We lost it)

And all of our memories,

so close to me,

just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there,

Thanks for acting like you care

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were Done...

He was everything,

everything that I wanted

We were meant to be,

supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of our memories,

so close to me,

just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

My quote:

When you left, you took a part of me with you

not only memories of you' r gone

a part of me is gone too

i don't really miss you

i don't miss the moments we are together

but, i miss a friend, once, i used to have

i miss the conversation and aspiration we shared

but, no more

i could never find a friend like you....

Goodbye, my friend....ONCE and for ALL

sammi

i woke up after a tearful night
i surfed through the internet
and bumped across a youtube video
about sammi cheng
a canto pop-star who went missing
from the scene for 2 years

i saw the dramatic change in her, humility and genuinity
i really could see how her life
switched 180 degrees, used to be wild and eccentric
i am amazed of God's grace in her

when i saw her onstage in her concert
reading testimony
to the whole packed stadium full with fans
her trip with Gigi Lai for World Vision
her baptism
her interview
her choir with other Christian artists for 512 incident
my body was surged with emotions, tingled and
i think to myself:

(1) i did not use my networking to expand my influence to win people for God
(2) i did not use my identity as a Christian to reach out
(3) my testimony of God's love is not practical and realistic
(4) i did not do my best, my very best
as a whole, i just repented before God and say to myself, " Angie, be real " repeatedly,
with tears flowing freely for hours
i could not contain myself
i could not control myself

Sammi says she had insecurity and use her coolness to defend
there are so many times i react just to defend and sometimes offend

The real me would:
(1) cry easily
(2) evangelise freely
(3) use Bible verses to support my words

i no longer did the above.
i did not live a new life after the hurt, pain and betrayal issues.
i should not waste anytime longer to hide myself under the layer of pretendency

suddenly, i wake up after a deep slumber
i wake up with a new real me.

Thank you Ah Mi for the genuinity i see in you.
it gives me the courage to live by the way God has intended for me.