My heart breaks knowing that...
Bud organisation is doing better than church
in reaching out to people especially youth
their camp and fair are doing so fine, so good
in reaching out to people especially youth
their camp and fair are doing so fine, so good
i am looking up at them for benchmarking:
What happen to "I gave you authority over the earth and keys of the heavens" ?
Are we losing the authority given by God?
What is going to happen to the land of Kuantan?
i feel that i am failing God's promises.....
i feel helpless
i am certain that brothers and sisters will say "pray"
just pray
i prayed; perhaps not enough
but i did prayed
i am just not motivated
perhaps afraid of...
i am just not motivated
perhaps afraid of...
taking the first step
falling after a few steps
starting over
making mistakes
lonely and hard journey
falling after a few steps
starting over
making mistakes
lonely and hard journey
i am scared of commitment
when i embark on a journey,
there is not turning back for me
there is not turning back for me
i cannot back up on something that i have promised God
The further they involve in Bud ism
the harder it would be for me to pull them back
i am not... doing enough
- consistently
- persistently
- perseverantly
What have i done?
Tell me what should i do....after praying to God
Wait upon the Lord, seek His face and be filled by Holy Spirit...
What's now?
God, i do not understand...
i do not know how..............
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