a speck of dust

i feel uncomfortable to point out
or direct
maybe like scold and discipline someone

because this verse rings to me:

Matthew 7:

1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged.

2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
3"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?

4How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?

5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.

not that we should have fear to speak out the truth
nor do not use the role and responsibility given from God to make things right

but sometimes i am tempted to say:

(1) Do you see the log in you?
(2) What about you?
(3) Do you deserve to say this?

i know that i am tough and a little rebellious or defensive at certain times over certain issues because:

(1) i know that we all will make mistakes and

(2) we should be loving and attentive to our leaders' conducts,
if they fall, the whole church crumbles,
i know that church belongs to God and He will take care of it,
or church will go on no matter who is not here anymore,
but ask ourselves,
how many times do we see the church uppermost
destroy the church, betray trust,
the damages done need a long time to heal,
it is better to prevent than cure

(3) if you really ask why some people backslide, leave our church to join others and you will see

i need to clarify;

- i do not mean to rip things down but i try to mend back the little holes with clay,

- what i did may seem worthless, undeemable, no one will see the benefit of it,

- but i know the neglect of it will rollball to nothing good

i try to stand at a space no one wanted but it is a part of the kingdom of God
because i know by taking my stand here
i will know more of God's will without affected by any earthy and humanly benefits
my heart can set right and totally focus on God alone
i could prepare myself or God can prepare me to go places and conquer land for Jesus

i want to be totally immersed in "Go to every corner of the earth."
i do not belong here solely but i belonged here so that i could belong to every part of this world becasue every nation belongs to my Lord

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but when people quote from the bible and seems biblical but
the words they said seem to be less of justification and
not worthy to be pour out from the mouth
i will think:
who are you lying to?
me?
God will know and judge what is deep in your heart...

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