healing touch

i never believed

in any healing session

i thought it was

fraud

mind manipulation

mind games

or even a devoit plan

until

i was healed

i came to the healing session
dubious

unconvinced

in doubt

hoping to find the pithole

to find the logic behind

that miraculous performance

the science of it

everything can be explained

broken down to little steps

was it physiological

or psychological

was it really happening

or are we made to see it happening

i was prayed for

my backpain

which comes as it goes

i went for x-ray before

doc said, " microfracture."

i wonder ...

an explanation for

unexplainable condition

i accepted that i .....

could not stand for too long

during sunday service

could not sit for long for sermon

had to walk around

people who do not understand

thinking, " that girl just does not know how to play her part."

what can i say or do?

sleepless nights...

could not stand straight

could not sit still

could not sleep on one side for too long

for 2 years

for 2 years or even more

it could not be treated

but...

just relieved

but i was afraid

that if i am analgesic

i could have injure myself further

my back may be overbearing

without me noticing

so i skip the pain killers

enduring the pain

thinking....

if i change my posture

i will be better

one day...

it will be better

i have to choke down my tears at times

to avoid being seen like a baby

asking for attention

i can only take it down myself

after the prayer,

nothing happened...

just as i predicted

when the pastor asks for others

for healing

i came forward to pray for them

despite myself not healed

as i stretched my hands out to pray for a sister

a surge of heat went through my back, along my hand

after that...

i felt my pain gone, subsides

i sat for a little while

the tinging came back

i prayed in tongue

faith grew in me

i realized....

the pain was not physical

it was mental

spiritual

after the session,

the pastor prohesied to me....

God wants me to know that

no burden is never too heavy for Him

There is a basket of burdens in the vision

He asks me to surrender the burden to God.

from that day onwards...

whenever i felt a tingling sensation

on my back

i know that i am holding something back from God

God is so wonderful that he is willing not only die for me

but to carry my daily burdens....

i saw a vision some weeks later....

i was beside Jesus

He gave me the cross which is behind Him

I was ...

amazed to know that it was light

My God helps me to bear my yoke

and My Lord puts on His yoke on me

Matthew 11:25
28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Since...

i will come before the Lord

to place each rock,

every piece of pebble

boulders

and even a grain of sand

this is too much for me....to bear

but it is not for You Lord,

thank you for dying for my sins, guilt, shames

most of all ....my burdens

i was healed by God's touch....