the real me / the real you

i nearly exploded
but i hold it in really good
i guess all this while, i am well-trained
i guess all this while, i grew out of it
i guess all this while, i grow matured

perhaps, i am so fed-up with you
perhaps, i try to give you a second chance
perhaps, i do not care what you do or say anymore

why are you
so selfish
so shallow

you do things out of :
obligation
authority pressure

You do things for:
blessing
position
namesake
habitual

i do not know why are you still doing the things you are doing
if you do not intend to go second mile
if you do not intend to do your best

i am angry
not because of your weakness and lacking

i am angry
because i know you are so much better than this
because i see God's guidance in you
i am not angry, i am disappointed actually

you are such a letdown.....
STEP UP...come on.