in his time

i always tell myself and people around me,

your destiny is in your hands,

take charge of everything,

situation does not control you,

you control it and make things happen.

Then i know,
i hold nothing in my hands,

i could not take control of my own fate,

i took control,

but lost control in return,

i could not make things happen my way.

Then i know,

God made me to serve His purpose,

His timing is the best timing and the only timing,

i may plan and arrange diligently,

but God has His Way to make it His Way.

Because,

I am a child of God,

I am a servant of God,

I am the voice for those who cannot speak

or defend themselves.

My lessons for life before i could be used by God;

patience; knowing that not how and what but when

forgiveness; knowing that hatred and bitterness consume my soul

tolerance; knowing that i could build relationships bridges with whomever

wisdom; knowing when to say what and how to

faith; live mission and vision oriented not based on worldly values

Deep inside,

i know that God has a special plan for me

when i completed my spiritual training

My Father in heaven is patiently waiting for me to jump over the hurdle

He promised to take me across

I just have to believe

And it will be done

In his time

In this moment

The moment is NOW.......

thank you Lord :

for your patience in me,

even if i have failed you repeatedly

in the same area,

i was so tired of my own excuses, weaknesses

but you never give me up nor forsake me

How could i ever say i hated someone or

unable to forgive

I am the most wretched of all....

I can forgive...