CLOSE,closer,closed

i keep you close

but not too close

keeping you in a distance

a safe distance

i know this is the way

to have you forever in my life

always there

with no strings attachedi am such a contradict

i enjoyed the feeling

the presence

the temperature under control

i could not

let myself

to be hurt

or hurt others

i may not be able to forgive myself

i need human touch

but one is too little for me

i need to open up my heartto occupy everyone

no time for the special one

the closer it is, the more i closed up to myself

what is going on?

actually....

nothing is going on...

should i be closer or closed?

I CLOSE:

Could not

LOSE

you

there is a cemetery in my heart

memories are buried there

i keep on digging graves

and placing a tombstone on each

as a reminder

How...

i dread the day of the UNREST resurfaced....