numb

it is not something i would use to describe myself..

at most, i would say i ...

pretend

temperament arises

eruption

wow...i am a volcano

i guess

different people have

different way of responding

i would use external method

some used internal method

where they suck it in

perhaps...

they are more
considerate of others and the consequences

careful not to step on the wrong shoes or toes

actually,

it is hard for me

to comprehend

why people would push

something as great as FEELING

away and down under

Emotions...

are very important for me

even when sometimes

it could be overbearing

overstated
heated
too passionate

at least

we pour it out

and get it over

my heart goes out

for the people,

that feel numb
or should i say feel nothing

it makes us

insensitive
unhappy

cannot perceive joy

but could feel peace

they would want to laugh

but hold them back

they would like to cry

and hold them back too

i felt so sad

because laughing and crying freely

is life for me...

i think;

it is a reaction of avoiding-

to be hurt again

to be misunderstood,

felt vulnerable once in their time,

usually after a conflict or clash

in short, something really bad happenned

what could i do for them?

use my passion to melt their ice palace?

but i do not think it works,

because emotions

became a barrier,

once they feel the emotion

seeping into their heart
they close it back again

should i just give them the peace that they so preciously hold on to ?

should i just appreciate the way they are?

they are more rooted, stable and calm...than me, by the way

i still think EMOTION is important for me to:

worship God

love people

understand gospel

to be creative

to communicate

my passion is firing up....whoosh.