fear of the known

a sudden emotion surge over me...
it is just me...
i am well over challenges and the unknown
animosity makes me excited and can' t wait for the truth to be revealed

the known, instead make me fearful
that life is only just
just plain

it is hard sometimes....
it is as if you could predict
and you think back to yourself, "it is just in my mind or it is real..."
it is like, "i don't want to know,
please keep it suspensing and surprising."
"don't tell me, make me keep guessing.

all this while, i thought that it was a healthy mentality
"to make a difference, take the road less taken."
now i reconsider,
"is it that i have a secretive side and carnal pleasure in it?"

i write this in open
because this is not a stronghold

For Christ has overcome it,
by the Power of the Cross, i shall yield to my Lord,
and submit to His Will.
Change me our Lord, renew my mind because this has cause me struggle.
Amen.