sweet mission (2)

On the Saturday (a day before the Sunday: the long awaited day)

it was supposed to be a shepherding time with my sheep

i always felt that i did not meet up with

her expectations nor

God's works in her through me

i would not consider it a failure but a struggle

i have certain persistence in my actions and speech

and my way to convey a message

i used all four languages of love out of the total 5:

Acts of Service, Gift, Time and Physical Touch. (on regular basis)

I despised "Words" in a way, i had a perception that

people with "all talk has no substance and practicality."

i have been holding back so long and so hard on

giving the Words of God and saying in biblical terms.

i just can't make myself into a

teacher of the law and words even that

my profession is teaching.

How absurd!

Well, profession and spiritual gifting are 2 things.....

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My sheep walked all the way to my house

to help out in the trifle making,

then we walked all the way to buy the ingredients.

i was seeing so much of her great personality and good characters.

this "trifle" incident was a close-up encounter with my dear sheep.

along the way, through our conversation

something twinkle in me

"character and attitude."

after that, we started our shepherding based on the title

well, it served the purpose.

it opened a new door in our relationship.

the "trifle" was a gift for us:

shepherd (me) and sheep (RS)

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11I long to see you so that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to make you strong—

12that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other's faith.

Romans 1: 11-12

sweet mission (1)

the trifle mission is a success

" completed "

this is no ordinary birthday celebration nor preparation.

this is a birthday gift given by God to the celebrated:

Shee Yan, Ryan and Jackie (a brother from KB who is now doing his practical here)

What is the story of "trifle" all about?

This is how it gets started.

A month ago, i asked my sister SY what is the cake she favored for her birthday.

Well, she did requested for ..... (i think fruit cake)

Ehm...i was dazed.

When a request is made, i must be faithful.

The first week of the month of July was supposed to be the monthly birthday party.

But Ryan was outstation.

Something ran on my mind that moment.

i said to myself, " it must be God's will.

i must do something special.

But....next week is SSS, student sunday service.

Then....how? What if clashed? What if.....??? "

Many ideas rushed through my mind.

Then i saw the "trifle" recipe online.

Again, " God's will ."

Then the next step, would be the ingredients, preparation and presentation:

I thought of the cocktail glass champagne in our church.

Ehm.... Then i msn ed with my leader asking for her permission.

Well, i must say it was a grueling experience.

There was actually a long list of procedures i must submit to.

i waited in anticipation as i looked upon the steps (1), (2) and (3).

Finally, request granted. "OK"

3 times in a row, " God's will ."

"If it is your will. Then it will be done."

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14When he would not be dissuaded, we gave up and said,

"The Lord's will be done."

Acts 21 : 14

a click away....

i am a desperado

eagerness could push a human beyond its boundary:

out of its norm and regularity

attention seeker of some kind

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i am divided between 2 worlds

the reality: physical

blogger realms: cyberspace

both the worlds clashed

and merged

where reality (blogger) enters cyberspace

cyberspace is the reality (inner thoughts)

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i have joined 3 blogging community today

- mybloglog

- blogexplosion

-blogcatalog

to expand my blogging social community

a networking process

an unlimited containment

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blogging is not a personal endeavour

but a sharing channel

as the cliche express:

we are only a click away

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1 John 1 :7

7But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another.......

Hidden in Christ

“A woman’s heart should be so hidden in Christ, that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.” Maya Angelou

this phrase touches and inspires me.

it opens my whole new world of the concept

"love."

it explains the nature of human desire to seek love and be loved

and it speaks of the biblical relationship that unites a man and a woman which is through Jesus Christ

a woman always seek a shelter

and a man should always seek God

so when woman finds her shelter

they shall remain in God's love.

click here for the full version of the article

special ice cream

CAN you BELIEVE that these are

ice creams?

i hope i can learn how to do this..

i think they are not cream based

but gelatin

that' s why they looked so solid and easy to shape

i wonder how long it takes to shape for 1 set????

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Hope i have the chance to make this for my special friends ....

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Job 37:

10 The breath of God

produces ice,

and the broad waters become frozen.

i deserved to be happy too

My dear,

i tread the ground you walk on

i

take in the air you breathe in

i was cautious of the looking eyes

i have to be careful not to leave traces

sometimes, i even have to leave misleading evidence

for these paparazzi to devour

to have a little peace of my own.

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so many considerations

that they are taking a toll on me

why do i have suffer all these pressure?

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i relish on the freedom and joy i used to have

i want to revive the pleasure of non-attachment

"me for the world, the world for me."

i want to embrace the earth.

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God, give me wisdom

and lead me not into regrets

of my later life.

Give me the courage to trust and love.

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Dear companions,

Don't peer at me (i can feel your eyes crawling on me)

Don't doubt me

i am innocent

i am just a consequence of situation

Do not bind what God has set free

"Noooooo................................."

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Dear me,

i am not a victim nor a sufferer

i am an overcomer and victor

i deserve to be fulfilled and loved too.

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For i am convinced that neither death nor life,

neither angels nor demons,

neither the present nor the future,

nor any powers

neither height nor depth,

nor anything else in all creation,

will be able to separate us from the love of God

that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

I believe so, do you?

trifle

do you know what is trifle?

i just knew what it was a few days back,

browsing through the internet

i was looking for new cake recipe

and this was simple

as simple as it is

there are a variety of versions

have you heard of cupcakes?

it is something like that

but trifle is contained in

transparent

glass or bowl

there are layers of ingredients

such as cream, cake, pudding, custard, shortbread

with variety of colourful fruit choices

that tempt the taste buds

and tasty even to the eyes

it would be my first attempt

and i like to try new things

thrilling, fun, exciting

and refreshing....

practically it is a "rojak" of every sweet and

every type of desset in one.

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1 Samuel 2: 2

2 "There is no one holy [b] like the LORD;

there is no one besides you;

there is no Rock like our God.

i just want to read....

i was approached by a duo,

a young teenage girl and her younger brother

they are promoting the fund raising program

for a charity they endorse

the first round,

i was on the phone with my sister

about her convocation plan,

the next round

i was enthusiastic reading Da Vinci Code

and she came to my table

i gently gestured that i was busy

but she reassured me that

there is something she needed me

to know about

out of exasperation,

i told her that i was her having my tea

and all i wanted was

a calm and peaceful day

to read my book

i was not looking at her expression

but through her voice

"then you take your time reading,"

i could sense the sarcasticism in her voice

something came to my mind:

i was very anxious when

i sensed such activities around me

rejecting them reminded me

of how i felt when

someone rejected to hear the gospel

at times,

we need to distrbute flyers

to promote church activities

sometimes,

we even have to go from house to house

it was an evangelism activity

but many vile organisations

are doing exactly

like house evangelism

these days

and they are

sobotaging the

real ones.....

society learns to reject and

find such methods

repulsive and fraud

we have to keep reinventing ourselves

to set apart from

the rest...

melody in my heart

melody in my heart

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"struck the chord of my heart"

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is a phrase i used frequently

meaning

gaining understanding,

entering one's heart

finally

i had the pleasure and honour

to experience that

my blogger pal

will be performing soon

and he practiced over at msn

just for the first time listening:

i was melting

my knees wobbly

i became a jelly on my chair

a scene came to me:

there is a calm sea

and the water slowly rising

higher and higher in my heart

then it overflows

tears of the melody seas

were wallowing in my eyes

each second

tears are threatening to fall

down my cheek

it was euphoria

the sea was a sea of love

missing someone so miserably

many memories flooded my mind

and heart

all at once

how can i control mysef from melting?

how can i resist the passion of guitar strikes?

you are striking my heart....

that was this sorrow

that keep seeping thorough

each cell of my body

was grieving

and yet pleasureable

gambateh: my friend,

i represent every female that we really feel what it is like loving and missing someone at the same time.

You touch our hearts.

Your music enters into the deepest corner of our heart

When you stop playing, the melody keeps residing in us...