mustard seed

There will be another supernatural healing rally in my community,
I am excited and awaiten with
anticipation of that days' coming,
prayers and reflections to
increase faith and compassionte heart,

The more i dwell,
the more doubts creep into my heart and mind (my soul)

God, take away all the disbelief in me,
Increase my faith
God is going to perform miracles in the land of Kuantan
Praise the Lord


We are going to gather a plentiful harvest
Let's gather all the workers to the field of salvation

However i lay my concerns at the feet of Jesus,

(1) Could we use publicity stunt like giving testimony, giving away cross necklaces as protection or taking their personal stuff to be prayed for? How far should we go?

(2) Shoud we give them such high hopes and leaving them hopeful for miracles and disease lifted? How much hope should we offer?

(3) Are we willing to keep in touch with these people who desired to be healed not only before that event but also after that, years to come? Are we really commited?

Am i the only one lacking in faith?



God, give me understanding of your awesome doings
I know that i may not understand
as your understanding is higher than the heavens

If i believe in salvation, i believe in miracles
My survival is a miracle
Why is it so hard to embrace healing miracle, Angie?

Yes, they are related and bridge us to Jesus Christ

May your will be done in Kuantan



May i be able to contribute and serve in this event

May all bro s and sis s join hands and hearts to serve

Amen.

Finding "the 1"

This is a normal issue in our church or in any church concerned

Dating / relationship / yoking with unbelievers

Sometimes, it becomes a taboo

(do not mention in public!!)

"Do not gossip!"

"Are you sure? Didn't you know?"

We have to admit, there is no one who has not that issue in mind

Reasons given for not yoking with unbelievers:

(1) will abandon faith and God

(2) may be prosecuted

(3) may have to bow to idols

(4) become compromising on conducts and values

(5) Bible says so

I could agree nothing less.

What do we have in common with non-believers?

Thinking that we will be apart after death tore my heart apart.

Could not give my heart out if he is an unbeliever.

Some of my friends' other half is non, but became a believer some time after

(gambling with love and life, totally disagree)

Although being a Christian has many levels,

may also backslide afterwards,

may be a hypocrite,

however, at least we start on the right foot and

under the surveillance of the church

Safer!

Reasons given for not dating without marriage in mind:

(1) unfair to the other party

(2) if not for the sake of marriage, may be for the sake of physical intimacy

(3) need to handle insecurity issues before hand

(4) then why you find partner if not for life?

Youngsters usually fall into this category

They like excitement and experimenting

As you grow older, we grow in maturity and responsibility

As we grow older, marriage will become the driving force

Reasons not to date the other half from other churches:

(1) do not share the same vision

(2) we do not really know if we serve well together

(3) we are committed to local church (H Ktn)

(4) may be pulled away to serve in another church (we are in deficient)

So, if all these criterias could be nulled, then "the one" could be considered, right?

Mission of life: People-tasking

There are 2 groups of people:

task-oriented or people-oriented

What is our task?

Reaching and touching people
Our task is people

How do we touch people?

Through tasking, activities and fellowships.
We reach people through tasks.

To be task-oriented, we need to be people-oriented
People-oriented person connect through tasks.

they are oxymorons, aren't they
not contradiction

We need to find out and see that both need to be bridge together like point A (task-oriented) to point B (people-oriented)

That understanding connect both.

Our mission of life: People-tasking

Starlight, star bright

I was reminded to hold on to the promises of God

(Psalm 31)
and be an overcomer,
be the head not the tail and
to be uprising and
performing miracles in workplace.

This is a lesson stressed for times and times.
It was only that day i discovered that it might be a culture distinction for our church.
I had been uncomfortable thinking, " i have to stand out."
Outstanding

Humility and obscurity has been a norm in the church
if someone told you that you are a people -pleaser or you are attention seeking
it was like you are struck by leprosy



"Be the brightest star you can in your circle of influence."

kind of make me twitched

What is important is my life as a mission has to be a "punch."

So when i am with my students, i treat them differently, i sound differently.

Shine, Angie, Shine, Shine for Jesus

You cannot satisfy everyone's requirement

So,use your discernment and chameleonity

We need to create an atmosphere that makes people want to be a part not apart,
Set up as a organisation which is:

(1) educational

(2) supportive

(3) contributive to the society

(4) a personal platform

(5) positive competitive

There is no space for:

(1) dull personality

(2) delusion

(3) inconfidence/insufficient/faithless

(4) fear of failure and rejection

We need to be:

(1) comfortable in the spotlight

(2) force ourselves above circumstances

(3) laugh through our weaknesses

(4) stand in the front

(5) speak aloud

(6) supporting and pushing everyone

I see that there are a few shifts need to be done in my personal style:

(1) Instead of pushing from behind,

i need to overcome,

be at front,

and lead others by the hand

(2) Do not see the differences within us,

but discover ways to

unite and bring out the best

by connecting and synergy.

(3) Instead of being ashamed for

being pointed out by others

(good / bad or untrue / true),

take it in

(we need publicity, exposure and non-stop excitement)

(4) Do not observe, act!!!!
Anything is better than nothing...

Sometimes By: Britney Spears

You tell me you're in love with me

Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me

It's not that I don't want to stay

But every time you come too close I move away

I wanna believe in everything that you say'

Cause it sounds so good

But if you really want me, move slow

There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Baby all I need is time

I don't wanna be so shy

Every time that I'm alone

I wonder why

Hope that you will wait for me

You'll see that you're the only one for me

I wanna believe in everything that you say'

Cause it sounds so good

But if you really want me, move slow

There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Baby all I need is time

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Baby all I need is time

Just hang around and you'll see

There's nowhere I'd rather be

If you love me, trust in me

The way that I trust in you

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right

Be with you day and night

Baby all I need is time

My quote:

It is easy to see someone's past hurts

there are symptoms and signals you receive and observe

run, hide, scared, closer and suddenly closed up, hot and cold, strange reactions,....

the list goes on...

who is not hurt in a way or two in this world?

relationships are promising and give way for the risk of getting....hurt

we could get nowhere by just avoiding....

......we need to face it face to face and say,

" I have overcomed it, nothing can bind or bound me for Jesus has set me free."

Angie,

God freed you.

Now you have to let go of the past and embrace beautiful future....

it is all right to let people see the true and truth of you

Why am i deceiving myself and others?

Lies upon lies to bury lies

"I am afraid no one will like the real Angie and hurt her,

afraid people will not accept everything of her,

i need to protect Angie (myself)."

happy ending By: Avril Lavigne

My Happy Ending ..

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something You said?

Don't leave me hangin'

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread

You were all the things

I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything,

everything that I wanted (I wanted)

We were meant to be,

supposed to be

But we lost it (We lost it)

All of our memories,

so close to me

Just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh

so much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh ohoh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they (So are they)

But they don't know me

Do they even know you? (Even know you)

All the things you hide from me

All the s*** that you do

(All the s*** that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything,

everything that I wanted (That I wanted)

We were meant to be,

supposed to be, but we lost it (We lost it)

And all of our memories,

so close to me,

just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there,

Thanks for acting like you care

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were Done...

He was everything,

everything that I wanted

We were meant to be,

supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of our memories,

so close to me,

just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

My quote:

When you left, you took a part of me with you

not only memories of you' r gone

a part of me is gone too

i don't really miss you

i don't miss the moments we are together

but, i miss a friend, once, i used to have

i miss the conversation and aspiration we shared

but, no more

i could never find a friend like you....

Goodbye, my friend....ONCE and for ALL

a walk down 9th Avenue

i like to observe their expressions and look into their eyes

hoping to catch a glimpse on their thoughts and mood of the day

some will even gaze up and smile a greeting

What is the connection we have in common?

Other than the road we walk on

Where do our destinies crossed?

day in, day out

our path crossed

do i really care for you, my familiar stranger?

every stranger is a friend in making

i wish to touch your...

heart

soul

life

i wish to be a part of your...

destiny

fate

..............life.

i wish no more

i should do more

i should no more

i will do more

Not only more

But no stopping

it is not that "Would you accept me?"

it is "Would i make room for others...?

God, let not fear and self-love resides in my heart

but compassion for souls...

the road not taken

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,



And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,


I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-




I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

A bend in the road

The bend in the road

When we feel we have nothing left to give

And we are sure that the song has ended,

When our day seems over and the shadows fall

And the darkness of night has descended,

Where can we go to find the strength

To valiantly keep on trying?

Where can we find the hand that will dry

The tears that the heart is crying?

There's but one place to go and that is to God,

And dropping all pretence and pride,

We can pour out our problems without restraint

And gain strength with Him at our side.

And together we stand at life's cross roads

And view what we think is the end,

But God has a much bigger vision,

And He tells us it's only a bend.

For the road goes on and is smoother,

And the pause in the song is a rest,

And the part that's unsung and unfinished

Is the sweetest and richest and best.

So rest and relax and grow stronger

Let go and let God share your load.

Your work is not finished or ended

You've just come to a bend in the road.

ADVERSITY CAN DISTRESS US

OR BLESS US

The way we use adversity is strictly our own choice,

For in God's Hands adversity can make the heart rejoice -

For everything God sends to us,

no matter in what form,

Is sent with plan and purpose for by the fierceness of a storm

The atmosphere is changed and cleared and the earth is washed and clean

And the "high winds of adversity" can make restless souls serene -

And while it's very difficult for mankind to understand God's intentions

and His purpose and the workings of His Hand,

If we observe the miracles that happen every day

We cannot help but be convinced that in His wondrous way

God makes what seemed unbearable and painful and distressing,

Easily acceptable when we view it as a blessing.

By: Helen Steiner Rice

cracks

If something goes really wrong,
we have to admit that we did something right wrongly

There are good methods with good intention,

however, there are many ingredients and associated condition that we have to consider too

We have to be adaptable and not hesistant to make changes
Excellence and standard may be the hallmark of God
certainly, it is true
and it is a command of God
certainly, it is something i hold on and look up too

However, over stressed will cause:

(1) unreactivity; afraid to move, fear of failure, will not step or do more,

knowing that will be receptive to critism

without practicality in help and suggestions

it is not something that a person or two could readjust,

because quality control (QC) became a culture

i observe in churches that grow,

the QC is not so stringent and rigid,

it made me question of the concept applied,

i could not have said that those churches are compromising

because i see the results and experience the atmosphere

(2) obedient and uncreative people;

no longer question or give suggestions and ideas

because we are used to system and standards like ISO.

slowly, no improvement,

just stabil and consistent

flat

by commending obedient and submissive people there are some disadvantages because...

(3) it is hard to retain certain type of people like:

- free-spirited and minded

- innovative and creative people

- those that spurred and jump on their feet

- individual with own mind set / opinion

- people that are more free-flowed, catalysed by situation

I believe in:

(1) Accepting personal style

(2) Different and striking concept each and everytime

(3) Fun and enjoyable for all (i dislike too task oriented until lose all the joy)

(4) Working as a team and everyone acts as a servant to everyone

(5) We rise and fall together as one entity

(6) Let people be comfortable to step out of their comfort zone (willing heart)

(7) Make everyone feel at home and belonged

(8) Walk the talk, action exceeds words

(9) Result-oriented, accept others' success method (learn from those who made it)

Conclusion:

I will still be adamant in my belief and culture breakthrough that i am entrusted to invade.

At the same time, be flexible, aggressive, never step back, be positive at every circumstances and be encouraging to others. Keep going!

When a man loves a woman

What is most beautiful about a woman?

- looks

- character

- poise and confidence

- capability

- attitude

- her love for you

- her love to God

i asked my shepherd before;
how do you know he is the one for you?
She says:

(1) He will refer to his leader appropriately

(2) You are willing to submit under him

(3) Above all, he will be the one who initiates and take lead

The most beautiful woman in my opinion is

one who supports and serve the people around her.

When a man loves a woman, not only he will be able to embrace one's strength but also the weakness that comes with it, love should be enduring and do not ask for return:

Unconditional love is the greatest love of all time..ever

it is gone and done

Dear Angie,

So if you're serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it.
Pursue the things over which Christ presides.

Don't shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you.
Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ—that's where the action is.
See things from his perspective.

Your old life is dead. Your new life, which is your real life—even though invisible to spectators—is with Christ in God. He is your life.

When Christ (your real life, remember) shows up again on this earth, you'll show up, too—the real you, the glorious you.
Meanwhile, be content with obscurity, like Christ.

And that means killing off everything connected with that way of death: sexual promiscuity, impurity, lust, doing whatever you feel like whenever you feel like it, and grabbing whatever attracts your fancy.

That's a life shaped by things and feelings instead of by God. It's because of this kind of thing that God is about to explode in anger.

It wasn't long ago that you were doing all that stuff and not knowing any better.

But you know better now, so make sure it's all gone for good: bad temper, irritability, meanness, profanity, dirty talk.

Love,
Colossians 3